R. Kelly‘s daughter, Buku Abi, born Joann Kelly, is sharing a very sad and deep story about loss that has a lot of people thinking.
The 22-year-old artist, who had to deal with her famous estranged father’s public fall from grace, is now facing another challenge in her personal life.
Buku took to Instagram on Wednesday to reveal that she recently lost a child, a boy, after a miscarriage. The horrific incident took place in October, and the Chicago native is feeling a lot of sorrow as she tries to move forward with her life.
She wrote: “I started making this post at 222pm My palms are sweating and I feel like I have to throw up. I’m also shaking… I’ve reread this like 20 times…
Dear Son. I am heartbroken you left me so early. If I’m being honest… I’m also angry. Many things have happened this year that I don’t understand…. but this one I don’t even want to believe, accept, move on from… but I will learn… I met you when you were about 8weeks & You became the light of my life in a world that was so cold, and dark, and truthfully very frequently lonely… so fast. It was just you and I. You opened me up and showed me love in ways I’ll never forget. In ways I’ll never be able to explain. You made me fall deep In love with myself … all because you and god chose me to be your mother. An honor…. You gave me a strength I didn’t know I had. It was and will forever be all for you. It’s been almost 2 months since you physically left and all the days have seem to mesh into one. I want to take the time to acknowledge all the mothers that have experienced the loss of a child. I’m speaking directly to you when I say you are seen. I feel you and I love you. There’s really no words to describe the pain, I know. I’d never want anyone to understand this pain.. and to the ones that do… somehow someway it’ll be okay again. I am not okay, deep down there’s an emptiness.. and that’s fine. sometimes being “ok” is just too hard. But… as long as you’re here to see any other day.. you’re doing something. I met you August 1st 2020 , and lost you October 1st 2020 (I wanted to go with you) these last three days have been particularly heavy. Today is 11/11/2020.. I’ve started my period, my throat chakra is on fire & You my beautiful being are heavy on my spirit. my sweet baby.. I love you so much and if the least I can do through my pain is help someone else then so be it. Blessed Be 4:44 ; 👼🏽 ///”
Friends and fans have reached out in the comments to shower the aspirant talent with love and support, and the Growing Up Hip Hop: Atlanta personality made sure to reply to some of them.
The exchanges quickly became a form of therapy session because some of the people had gone through similar experiences.
As Buku was dealing with this traumatic experience, her controversial dad was getting beat up in a Chicago jail.
So far, the justice system has refused to release the “I Believe I Can Fly” singer on bail, and the trial has faced some delays.
Some are wondering if the stress of the situation did not affect Buku in a more serious way than previously thought despite the fact they do not have a close relationship.
People on social media are praying for the young woman to find the inner strength necessary to overcome the current pain and sadness.
Her close relationship with her mother, Andrea Kelly, might help through this.